is it time already, to bid goodbye to 2011?

i will say that i had a great year, being away for 6 months in the best holiday i've had in my life so far.
i made some really great friends.
i learnt the darkness of the working world.
i realised the fragility of relationships.
i became more of a party animal.

now, as 2011 is drawing to a close, i'm more concerned on finding my direction in life, saving more money for future use. finding the right guy to share my ups and downs with, a guy who i can give up partying for. but xiaopork doesnt believe i can stop drinking and clubbing. haha

time to use the weekend to find a better job.

hohoho

offloading rubbish thoughts

男生是不是都喜欢单纯的女生，那对爱情充满憧憬的可爱，那看似娇弱的外表，那些任性的撒娇？
因为那样的单纯，就代表涉世未深，让男生想要拥有及保护？

那，那些伤过痛过，自我防备变得很强，失去了对爱情天真的期盼的女生，会引男生注意吗？难道她们不也同样需要被小心珍惜保护？

是因为我没有把我的时间给你，所以你的目光被别的她吸引了？
突然想知道，当时是怎样的我吸引了你？而现在的我，还会吸引男人的真心吗？i only want to be the only one, despite everything, from the beginning to the end. don't wanna be the one you choose because there's no else around, because of lame reasons other than you loving me.

jingle ling a ling~

had to resort to using my blog to remember what I was doing this time last year. getting older, some things remain the same, for which i'm thankful for. some has changed, but probably it's fated.

just came back from a 3d2n genting trip with my parents, bro and Gen. not a bad trip, but as usual, it makes me wonder why do i keep going to msia. especially a place where we were trapped with hordes of ah beng teenagers. loved the heart-to-heart talk with gen. loved being pranked by my adorable forever young-at-heart bro. loved the meals we ate as a family too, especially since it seems that we had more meals together in these 3d2n than in the 7 weeks I've been back.

thanks babe, for being the photographer in capturing the moments

busy week ahead, starting with xmas lunch tomorrow in the company.
23/12: the girls (+2) are meeting at wala wala for dinner before ktv at NTUAC
24/12: expected dinner for mum bday is still in discussion, but meeting gen to countdown to xmas together
25/12: to sleep in. hahaha unless someone dates me
26/12: mj + 2b exchange. a turnout of 17 sounds so amazing!

have a merry xmas people!

alamak

came home after celebrating uncle's 60th birthday at granny's house, and got overcame by an urge to clear out my drawers.

and then i found notes. alamak. why do I do cleaning in the middle of the night? hahaha

this one was from secondary school, such a long time ago!

this was a few years back? walao your handwriting was really messy. and somehow my cellphone has a voice note teaching me to say 恭喜发财，万事如意

as recent as May this year, written super neatly. (probably even neater than my writing) not deliberately made blur, but due to lousy camera on mobile phone

一切事过境迁了，终于能会心珍惜拥有过的时光与回忆，无论好坏。能做朋友，算是种缘分。

relationships are fragile

一次对话，可以让两个人结下误会，从此便有了一个心结。故此，再亲密的人，说话时都需要保留一点空间，也还是要谨慎。

我并非在你们的两人关系里，所以当然没法知道来龙去脉，其中包括的细节与苦衷。但，我看到的足以让我产生关心，我想我必须告诉你，因为我害怕你当局者迷。请你明白，我要跟你促膝而谈，赌上我们的交情需要多大勇气。有可能，我说的话你不想听，那就算了。我只是想和你分享我担忧的，希望你不会觉得我太多嘴，而从此把我拒于千里之外。如果我太自以为是的看法错了，我一定会道歉。但也请你别急于否认我话中可能隐藏的那些你需要人提点才会发现的事实。不同的人看到的观点，可能还是有点道理。

战战兢兢的，要找对的时机下手。世界上最听不进去的4个字应该是“为了你好”。

first week of job 2

mon-wed: computer system was down, and everyone couldn't access their documents. apparently it's the first time such a thing has ever happened.
thurs: the photocopier broke down, creating a short circuit that cut off power
fri: nothing happened, amazingly.

and through all this, I had to orientate myself, deciding which are the things that I wanna read, to know more about the company and how it works. i had the luxury of doing it in an office where i was the sole occupant. so i'm Like A Boss! managers who wanna talk to me have to knock on my door first. -_- although the thought that the colleagues may wonder what's my GM thinking of me kinda scares me, I am a bit too zen-like to care. I can lunch alone, go work & home alone, I can just know them as colleagues and not friends.

no idea why I'm like that suddenly, but I really had no mood to interact/socialise the past days. maybe the situation was made worse by the fact that despite sleeping for 7 hours daily, i'm still abruptly awakened before my alarm rings, and i'm always sleepy. is this the back-to-work inability to re-adjust syndrome?

i shall always try to make an effort to do the simplest things for my family. buying apples for parents, bread for breakfast, stuff the folks request. today, ahma's smile on seeing me made me touched. spending time together is actually not as easy as it sounds.

on a totally unrelated note, at this rate, i'll probably be playing mj at least once every weekend.

would u understand my random musings:
i need a hug in rainy weather, because i dislike getting cold n wet.
i don't wanna hear that song, because it was your song for me, and then it was my song for you, but it wasn't our song, ever.
那一年，我们"离开地球表面"。但明年却没法一起登上"诺亚方舟"
the best way to lead our lives is separately, with no further contact complicating matters.
despite being curious, questions mustn't be asked.